This is the story of Pam and John; she in her early 50’s and John is 62. Pam is a college professor. John taught at a local community college until diagnosed with Parkinson’s in March 2008, then Lewy Body Dementia in April.


Friday, July 4, 2008

What next?

I'm very fond of the Christian folk music of David Bailey, so I signed up to get his email newsletter. Yesterday I got a newsletter in which he told the story of his cancer diagnosis and wrote:

A week after that came the long walk and the epiphany I've told so many about - the one where I yelled "why me" and God showed me a better question: "What now?" So today, 12 years later, I find I am still asking it. And while the answers are still sometimes elusive, I still enjoy asking.
That struck me, though I am trying to figure out the tone of voice of "What now?" I don't think it is "Oh no, what else is going to go wrong?" He may mean it as action: "Given that this is my situation what is the next step?" But it appeals to me in a tone of bemused curiousity that implies we are passengers on a wild ride. What unexpected thing is going to happen next?

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