I give up

I had the stomach flu in the early hours of Sunday morning. I was through the acute phase so I traveled home Sunday afternoon but it was hard and I've felt very weak today. And sore--I strained a muscle under my breastbone during the acute stage. Over the weekend I cooked healthy food for my daughter, who had a cough, and encouraged her to catch up on sleep, but she reports that today she was sicker and didn't go to her classes. I'm going away again Thursday for a professional conference in Tallahasse, and my two commitments there are Thursday and Saturday afternoons so I can't shorten the trip even though I am driving. I did try to make the first step towards setting up for our son to revisit a college, but they are on spring break the same two weeks he is. I haven't been able to deal with calling about missing forms for our taxes much less with taking the next step towards house renovations. And John is worried about our sex life.

sexuality

I said to John a few weeks ago that I didn't feel like we were partners any more, I felt I was taking care of him, and that was an issue for me in being interested in a sexual relationship. It was a day when I was very depressed and he hadn't noticed--that was actually the bigger issue at that moment. Since then we have moved back towards more partnership, both because he has been making more effort and because we have had to work together to deal with his aunt's medical problems. But sexuality is complicated these days on all sorts of levels. His participation is changed by stiffness as well as by the effects of Parkinsonism that Cialis no longer fully helps. And I'm just in the last few months seeing more change in me as a result of menopause (I'm hopeful I'm finally past the on-again off-again stage). He asked if we should give up and I said we didn't have to give up completely but let's see it as a diminishing part of our life rather than fighting the changes.